world view
Why so often do we feel so afraid, sick, or just apathetic to do something new?
I consider myself a pretty outgoing and personable person... I'll strike up a conversation quite easily with new people. But honestly sometimes I feel like a stranger in my own body... I imagine the things I could do if I wasn't attached to my own skin, then imagine all of the things I can do while attached to it. At times it can be nice to see a glimpse of a different version of yourself, almost as if seeing yourself through someone else's eyes.
Have you ever had a conversation with someone that you had almost made up in your mind before it ever even happened? I mean, where everything literally happened the way you had imagined it would? This happened to me a week ago. Everything I had thought of while sitting there talking to him, he brought up, even before I had mentioned it. Had he either glimpsed into my mind, or am I just an incredibly easy person to read (the exact opposite of what I've been told before, by the way). Maybe he saw a version of my soul. Maybe the whole thing was anything but real. It was as if two unrelated cars drove to the exact same insignificant place. Then the feeling of surprise when you get there and someone else has arrived too. When two worlds collide for some meaningful moment, but then are just as nonchalantly and easily erased in your mind and in reality.
Skepticism is a powerful tool. It can help you just as easily as it can destroy you. Sometimes I wish I could throw it out the window....just to live. To see the world with untainted, trusting eyes. Maybe then I would not be so blind.
k
I consider myself a pretty outgoing and personable person... I'll strike up a conversation quite easily with new people. But honestly sometimes I feel like a stranger in my own body... I imagine the things I could do if I wasn't attached to my own skin, then imagine all of the things I can do while attached to it. At times it can be nice to see a glimpse of a different version of yourself, almost as if seeing yourself through someone else's eyes.
Have you ever had a conversation with someone that you had almost made up in your mind before it ever even happened? I mean, where everything literally happened the way you had imagined it would? This happened to me a week ago. Everything I had thought of while sitting there talking to him, he brought up, even before I had mentioned it. Had he either glimpsed into my mind, or am I just an incredibly easy person to read (the exact opposite of what I've been told before, by the way). Maybe he saw a version of my soul. Maybe the whole thing was anything but real. It was as if two unrelated cars drove to the exact same insignificant place. Then the feeling of surprise when you get there and someone else has arrived too. When two worlds collide for some meaningful moment, but then are just as nonchalantly and easily erased in your mind and in reality.
Skepticism is a powerful tool. It can help you just as easily as it can destroy you. Sometimes I wish I could throw it out the window....just to live. To see the world with untainted, trusting eyes. Maybe then I would not be so blind.
k
posted by Kim at 9:05 PM
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