on time and eternal sunshine
The conversation in my spanish class this evening stumbled like a drunkard attempting to walk a straight line. Does time disappear after it passes, if so, where does it go? Oh, and so much more importantly- if your spouse were incarcerated for 15 years, would you even recognize them when it was through, or stay married to them for that matter? Holy sh*t-- It's as if I just unleashed a basket of angry snakes, and now they're slithering, crawling up your legs, so... what do you say?
Time-- it's internal, and it becomes more so after it passes. The pieces and remnants left behind-- the memories themselves are dynamic, changing every time we access them. Our perception as we recall our memories essentially changes them. Eternal Sunshine is a great movie on many levels... not only does it show us how are memories are connected, modified and accessed in our minds, it brings up the point that no time in life is truly wasted. Even if something such as a relationship doesn't end up working out "positively" in the end, the experience and memory of such an event modifies you. To be altered in the end (and you should be) is the consequence of time and decision. To evade this is wrong, and the only person losing anything meaningful in the end is you. We can't have eternal sunshine, or spotless minds, and we shouldn't want these things because to feel pain is to be human, and the knowledge of pain is what helps us to avoid it and value its absence. I have a major problem with the abuse of antidepressants, and their new-found statistically significant suicidal influences. What it all proves is that there's no magic pill or treatment for anything and everything-- we can't save everyone. We all get down sometimes, and it's got to be said how that is normal to spite the zoloft commercials that plead with us to believe otherwise and even animate our frowning neurotransmitters. Aren't they soooo damn cute?
I'm waiting for the day when our control freak tendencies will become obsolete, when we'll be left to fend for ourselves with our own personal strength. For then it'll become more obvious how all of the memories and experiences and the soul within come together to make us complete. With hope, someday I'll feel whole and even revel in my complacent animated neurotransmitters...
k
Time-- it's internal, and it becomes more so after it passes. The pieces and remnants left behind-- the memories themselves are dynamic, changing every time we access them. Our perception as we recall our memories essentially changes them. Eternal Sunshine is a great movie on many levels... not only does it show us how are memories are connected, modified and accessed in our minds, it brings up the point that no time in life is truly wasted. Even if something such as a relationship doesn't end up working out "positively" in the end, the experience and memory of such an event modifies you. To be altered in the end (and you should be) is the consequence of time and decision. To evade this is wrong, and the only person losing anything meaningful in the end is you. We can't have eternal sunshine, or spotless minds, and we shouldn't want these things because to feel pain is to be human, and the knowledge of pain is what helps us to avoid it and value its absence. I have a major problem with the abuse of antidepressants, and their new-found statistically significant suicidal influences. What it all proves is that there's no magic pill or treatment for anything and everything-- we can't save everyone. We all get down sometimes, and it's got to be said how that is normal to spite the zoloft commercials that plead with us to believe otherwise and even animate our frowning neurotransmitters. Aren't they soooo damn cute?
I'm waiting for the day when our control freak tendencies will become obsolete, when we'll be left to fend for ourselves with our own personal strength. For then it'll become more obvious how all of the memories and experiences and the soul within come together to make us complete. With hope, someday I'll feel whole and even revel in my complacent animated neurotransmitters...
k
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